Rough Week Full Of Tears

Hi girls. I have been such a horrible blogger lately. I have just been so over whelmed. On Monday I had to rehome my sweet fur-baby boy. For those of you that are new readers, I’ve had Bentley my 4 year old Yorkie his whole life. He has been my world. He has been with me through all of life’s struggles including a horrible break-up, many new jobs, being away from my family for the holidays and much more. He has always been the one thing that was constant in my life and he was my safe haven. I know this is weird because after all he’s only a dog but he has been so much more to me.

Me & Bentley



However, after R and I moved in together 3 years ago B really started to act up. He would pee everywhere to mark his new territory. So after 3 hard years of trying everything from staying outside for hours, kenneling, and trainers it’s just not working. B would go outside and potty then come back in the house look at you and potty again right in front of you. I have gotten to such a place of irritation that I couldn’t handle it and then I would kennel him for his bad behavior and it was a repeat cycle. Not only was it frustrating to me but it was also frustrating to my hubby to be. He put so much money, time and effort into our buying our house and now I sit back and watch my dog trash it. R was so good and never mentioned anything but I could see it was affecting him. 

R and Bentley

 I also started to notice that recently B was becoming more aggressive. I think he would get mad that he was kenneled so much of the time that he would then become mean. After seeing this side of him I really began to think about the future, and with this aggression it scares me to think of him around kids.

 

So even though it was the hardest thing to do, I found B a really great home. They have 2 other female Yorkies, so he gets to have playmates and gets to be king of the house. They also have a large fully fenced yard for him to play and the best part yet is that they have someone home at all times. So even though it really hurts and I’ve cried many tears this week it is going to be what is best for the both of us. How about you ladies have you ever been in this situation or something similar?

 

Busy Busy Bee...

Hi Ya'll! I’m sorry I’ve been super busy lately and here’s a rundown of why...First of all we are only 4 months away from our wedding! I couldn’t be any more excited. However, it is a little stressful. We have been engaged for two years, so for the most part it has felt like our wedding was sooo far away that it felt funny to plan things for it. Well in a blink of an eye its right around the corner. So we have been doing all things wedding, invitations, music list, making things and finalizing plans with our vendors. During this whole thing I have once again realized how great of I guy I conned into marring me. He is so helpful and even decided to take some of the stress off by planning the honeymoon for us. So it’s going to be a complete surprise! What a stud.

Heres our invites, that I had made.

 

Since the wedding is quickly approaching it means it’s almost wedding dresstime. My dress is supposed to ship February 10^th. This is really excitingto me because I decided to live on the edge when ordering my dress and decided to order a size smaller knowing I’m continuing to lose weight. So far I havelost 12lbs since then and I only have 15 more to my goal. This is exactly 1 lb.a week until we leave. So I can’t wait to see how the dress fits so far! I had also bought a rehearsal dress that I had found on a clearance rack at H&M for $10 that was way too small so it has been hanging in my closet until last night when I got a wild hair and decided to try it on! And guess what ladies...It fit!!! I’m not sure it will be for the rehearsal any more, I think I want something sexier and tight for the rehearsal but it will still be fun to wearwhile in Hawaii!

 

 

 To make sure my wedding dress fits just the way I want it to I have also started the 30DS again. I’m holding myself accountable and doing it every day until mydress comes (32 days!!) I have also signed up for 4 5Ks so far this year (yes, you read that right I‘ve only ever done 1 5K in my life and now I’m signed upfor 4 more.) I am going to do one every month until we leave. I have signed up a Valentines themed run on 2/16 and all the proceeds go to Habitat for Humanity (one of my favorites since I work in construction.) Then I will follow that with a St.Patty’s Day run on the 16^th of March (Also the dayafter my birthday!) Then is my favorite run the Seahawks 5K in April, Followed by a City 5K the first weekend of May. So as you can see I’m going to be verybusy but I am completely excited!

XOXO

{Bright} side

Good Morning Ya'll. Today seems like a {so what} kind of day... So here we go.

~ So what if I woke up on the wrong side of the bed and am in a horrible mood. It also doesn’t help that our company’s direct deposit didn’t go through last night. Come on we need payday after Christmas week, like Lindsay Lohan needs her meds.

~ So what if I pressed snooze 4 more times this morning and had no time to do anything with my hair so I’m wearing it in a French braid like I'm back in the 5th grade.

~ So what if I’m more excited for another 4 day weekend than I can stand.

~ So what I constantly feel like I’m going to be robbed even through I don’t have much to my name.{ I deposited cash this morning into the the ATM and couldnt help but look around like a crazy person, happens everytime}

~ So what if I didn’t tip at Starbucks this morning. I ordered oatmeal {unmade}. All they had to do is hand it to me.

~ So what if Im a Christian and still swore at a stupid driver on my way to work today. He almost caused me to die.

~ So what if I want to crawl back in bed, right now.

Okay and on to this..

the bright side is this.. Its Friday. I have a glorious 4 day weekend ahead of me including a Seahawk home game and NYE Party. I am healthy, I have a job and I will have plenty of time to sleep after 4. There it is folks. Have a good weekend! XOXO

 

a time for change.

I found both of these quotes recently and fell in love.  I had fallen in love with the first one because I think it’s often times so true. I know how strong my love and loyalty for R is because I would be completely content right by his side if we had absolutely nothing. As a matter of fact we lived like we had nothing for just about a year to save money to pay off debt. There were times we were bored and wanted out of the house. There were times we felt stupid telling other people that we didn’t have the money to go out with them and yet we made it. We had to get creative, we had to learn about each other and we had to be each other’s best friend. Now that time has passed and I am so blessed to know that he is the one I want to stand next to when we have absolutely nothing.  I also feel that this quote is also true to many accounts by professional athletes and stars. So many of them get caught up with the money and the fame that they then cheat on the ones they love because other women are throwing themselves at them because of the money. Regardless it makes you think and I like that.

 

This quote really hit home today. I have been having a hard time at work. I am very good at my job and I have many skills. However I felt like I am not able to perform to my fullest abilities. I feel like others are scared of my success and my drive. So lately I have been getting caught up in this rather than understanding people are different and realizing what I need to do to make my own situation better. This includes gossip. I have allowed myself to be present and take place in talking about others. I don’t like myself when I become a part of this and I am better than that. I want to be the type of person you just deep down know would never say one bad thing about anyone. I have made a choice to live the life of someone I would want to meet or better yet the person I want to be.  How could you change to be a person that you would want to meet or better yet one you would want to be friends with or in a relationship with? Just another thing to think about before all of the New Year’s resolutions come up.



a flash back of the past week.

Good Morning Ya’ll!! Sorry I’ve been on a bit of a blogging break with the holidays in full affect. So where did I leave off... Last Tuesday night I baked cookies for all our family and freinds. After R got home from work we went and hand delievered them. He thought I was crazy but we really enjoyed the time together.



Then Wednesday , I had my company Chistmas party. The party was held at Acme Bowl in Tukwilla. It’s a grown-up bowling alley and I love it.

What I wore to the work xmas party

 

Acme Bowl

Gift from my Boss

 The party was really a good time and luckily for me I have a generous boss who gave us some good gifts and food.  The only bummer was that the party was about a 45 min drive from work in the middle of the day (not that stopped anyone from boozing) but we all hit the afternoon traffic on the way home. It took me an hour and 20 mins to get home! Bummer. Oh and the other major bummer was it being on a Wednesday and getting up early to get my bum to work the next morning.

So then we skip ahead to the weekend!! Sunday we tailgated pretty much all day before hitting the Seahawk vs. 49er game.

There may or maynot be fireball in those ;)

Isn't he Handsome!

 Let me tell you Christmas came early!!! We killed the 49ers!! It was such a good game and my team and QB are finally getting some respect! Playoffs here we come!!

I think the face painter prefunked more than I did. {Sideways and def not right below my eye lol}

 Me and R's Cousins

 The Four of us!

 R & Me

 R, Me and Kristine (R's Cousins wife)

Monday R had to work and I literally baked all day (6 hours, no joke!) But all of the deserts came out so good that I probably gained like 10 lbs. but that’s beside the point. So here’s the roll-call of what I made...

Brownie Surprise Cupcakes

Red Velvet Cookies

Chocolate Chip Carmel Cookies

Mini Apple Pies

Reese’s Peanut Butter Brownie Truffle (to die)

 

Then when R got home we headed to his parents for dinner and gifts followed by driving around to see Christmas Lights. We had such a good time I love that his family all lives so close and that we get to do the typically Holiday activities with them!

 Our Nephew Julian {his first Christmas}

{This picture warms my heart}

 

So Wednesday we got some much needed sleep before Bentley and R opened their stockings (Yes, I have a stocking for the hubs and my fur-baby.) Then we got ready and went to R’s Cousins house for a big family Christmas dinner. We had such a great time and filled our bellies with yummy food!

 R and Jules

 Me & R

 The Family

 R & Me at Christmas Dinner

{R's Cousins wife and Me, [Love Her]}

 

Fast forward to this morning and we are both up early and already at work. Gosh even though it’s only a 3 day week it’s going to take forever I need more sleep and/or  weekend from my weekend! So Happy Wednesday-Monday!! And only a few more days til New Years and operation NYE Dress in full effect!!

And just a reminder anything is possible. My cousin Hope showed me this picture of myself yesterday from about 2 years ago and the right was taken this morning.

Its amazing what {-70lbs} looks like!~

XOXO

4:00PM!!!

30 more minutes and I am free people!! Whooo Hooo!! I can’t wait! R and I are going to a few different Christmas lighting events tonight and I can’t wait. We will go get coffee, listen to Christmas songs and drive up north! But I wanted to share another fun quote for the day..

Have a great weekend!!

Stay Married

As our wedding date is quickly approaching (5/17/13 in Hawaii) more stress keeps getting brought on. Last night, my grandma {who if you don’t read this blog is the next closest thing to my mom} called to say that she wasn’t going to be able to attend the wedding. I don’t have many family members. I have my mom, my sister, and my grandma on my dad’s side.  I do have a few others but we are not as close (grandma & grandpa, aunt, cousin, extended family) and they have already told me that they will not be able to make it to the wedding due to different reasons.

 So I was completely crushed when the words came out of my grandma’s mouth. I tried to be understanding until I got off the phone and fell to pieces. I then called my mom and later talked to R when he got home. After much discussion and tears {and R asking if we could pay part of the way, since its destination wedding... god I love that man.} I have come to terms and realized that it’s going to be what it will be and I don’t have full control. I am however very blessed that I will have mom to walk me down the aisle and my sister by my side. I’m also very blessed to be received into such a loving gracious family. This does not mean I’m still not taking it tough.

 I think this is hard for me because I have had an idea of what my wedding would be since I was a little girl and now as things and plans change it’s hard not to feel a little hurt that’s it’s not everything you envisioned. However, my mom said something to me last night that really hit home after thinking more about it. She said “this is about a relationship, it’s about you & R, it’s not about anyone else and it’s about the love that is between the two of you. Don’t lose focus of that.”  {Wow.. Good, Right?!} I originally decided that I had wanted a destination wedding because we wanted something small with the ones we loved the most by our sides in a beautiful place to share the special love and bond we had. That has not changed. I need to remember I am so blessed that I have found this amazing man and I can’t wait to be his wife. Even if it’s just the two of us standing there that is special.

Speaking of marriage I thought I would share this blog that I read pretty often. I love their take on things and even if you are not married they have some really good things to read and remember or share.

http://staymarriedblog.com/blog/

 Only more day to a much needed drink weekend! XOXO